So, there you have it. There's no shame in your game and you will rejoice! There's no shame or disgrace in the life you've live. It's been lived, what happened happened. There's no erasing anything. And there's no condemnation to those in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1). He has wiped the slate clean and you have been forgiven for everything (Hebrews 10:17/18). He will give turn your mourning into gladness and sorrow into comfort and joy (Jeremiah 31:13b). You are created new in Him (2 Corinthians 5:17).
So you see, there is absolutely no shame in your game and you will rejoice in all the Lord has for you. Don't bother looking back. Keep going forward. If you find your mind wandering back, immediately shift it to something new and fresh. Don't stay back there. Life offers us more abundance, more joy, and more peace when we look forward. Focus on the things ahead. God has preserved your life -- my life -- for a reason and we have even more to offer people through our testimony, which wasn't for nothing. It was such a time as the time it will be for. It's time to start walking in the authority the Lord has given us. Walk in victory.